4th in a row!!

Diwali time again. And it is becoming bit of a ritual to sit alone in the night, away from home, on this rather beautiful day and trying to pen some thoughts. A ritual that isn't something to be happy about. And tonight it seems even the thoughts are on a strike. So much inside at times and such desires to express but not a trickle willing to come out on the blog. Hazaaron Khwaahishein Aisi.. So what should I write this diwali. Lets begin with things I want to change and change rather quickly. And the list has become pretty clear actually. Job has to change as has to city. Singlehood has to change. Yeah that one is a pain at times. It would have been nice to have had that someone. I know I have covered this before but damn the longing doesnt ease!! How I wish for some magical moments with some magical person. And how I wish to be back in Kolkata. I know not the best flow of thoughts but just penning the top of the mind things. I so miss my family, esp my mom. I feel so proud of her and the way she brought us up. I look around at other parents, other families and I realise that it is so precious to have parents who made you value independence, respect, integrity, love, compassion more than other meaningless things in life. Parents who always insisted on the bigger picture. I will write a post on my mom some time.
But anyways coming back to Diwali and this post. What do I say. As i wrote last year (if i remmeber correctly), this is the FESTIVAL of the year. And to be spending it away from home for the 4th year now is such a sad thing. Almost dont remember the last special diwali. Chalo thn.. thots have completely dried. All I can say is Happy Diwali to all those who love and wish to be loved!!