What I have left behind so far!!

Its one of those nights when Gahzals seem like the best gift to makind!! What pure magic there is in some of those writers, those singers!! Gosh I so wish I could create music. Really. Wouldnt it have been wonderful to play a violin or strum a guitar to push away some of the blues of life!! Anyways, as I sit or rather lie here, I get this strange urge. I want to make a list of some of those things that I have left behind as I have made this journey so far!! I want to recollect some of those things that were once a part of my being in some ways and that are now largely forgotten or vanished!! So lets see what I have left behind so far.

1. Left behind a very precious friend. As I sit here listening to a song that reminds me of him all the time, I think of him. I think of those faint images that I have in my mind. I think of those times that we spent together. I know I don't give it much thought on a daily or even a weekly, monthly basis, but boy do I miss him some times!! And I know its a possibility that we may not have been such good friends were he around till now but then still.. It was a good time that we had man!! Peace!!
2. I have left behind some or may be a lot of innocence. Now its not that I have become a world weary, battle worn cynic or something. I still can see the beauty in nature and I still can die for some of these songs!! But some where something has been left behind. May be its just growing up. Its just the nostalgia of those by gone years. Who knows!!
3. Carelessness. Yeah thats something that has definitely been left behind. Again a function of growing up I know. But it was nice to be in school and to bother about nothing more than going to school next day. Life gets more complicated doesn't it.
4. I miss the time when I was not aware of money, social status, consumerism etc etc. I know I am not one of those super ambitious or super materialistic type of a guy and that I am not bothered by my current situation but damn!! I will write something on this later for sure

Well I guess the bottom line is that everyone else I miss my childhood, my school days!! But its ok i guess. I hope that a corner of my heart will always have space for these finer emotions and memories and that as an old man, I would be able to recollect some of these things and still have that bitter sweet agony in my heart!!